Ever since I became sensitive to energy, I’ve been aware of a blockage in my sacrum/tailbone area. A forward bend with my knees straight is the most difficult stretch for me to do. My bladder meridian, which runs through that area, is also fairly blocked overall.
When I was a member and later an instructor at a Body & Brain Center, this condition got better. I could stretch farther and the blockage felt subtler and deeper. Since I’ve been sitting in an office chair for years, it’s become worse, and I feel it’s responsible for a lot of my emotional and mental angst; it prevents enough energy from circulating up my back to completing its natural cycle.
Because of this, I’ve made it a habit to notice what situations and actions open that blockage. It does open for short periods of time. I’ve found that many things open it, although usually with some effort.
Last night, after some bowing meditation and Brain Wave Vibration, although it was still a little blocked, I really asked myself what was keeping me from being fully connected to the full flow of life energy inside me and through me. Once I asked that, within a few moments, I started spontaneously to forgive. I forgave all of my past actions in this lifetime and any others, I forgave all of the actions of all of the other people on the earth throughout history, and I forgave all of the future actions we might take. I forgave anything that was not from love or produced love in some way, large and small.
After that, my tailbone area not only felt more open, but it felt “healed.” I had a deep sense of overall healing. I felt stronger and more secure in myself as well. Even this morning, even though I haven’t exercised yet, I still feel better—freer, settled, hopeful.
I don’t know how long this state of being will last, but I won’t try to hold onto it. Doing that would only cause stagnation and dwelling on the past. I’ve learned not to chase after particular emotions or situations from my memory.
However, I’ll try to stay in the moment, and remember the lesson of forgiveness. I will probably need to forgive many times in my life.
Forgiveness, like gratitude, doesn’t need a reason. It’s just a part of our true self. So when I forgive or feel grateful, I’m expressing that pure and divine part of me. The more I express it, the more I embody it, and that is real healing and hope.