Let’s Get Holy with Photoshop

Ilchi Lee book

Just playing with Adobe Photoshop. I like the holy glow.

This bunch gave a talk on I’ve Decided to Live 120 Years by Ilchi Lee at a Barnes & Noble store in Yonkers, New York. Apparently, they played Ilchi Lee’s Prayer of Peace at the end, and the whole store went quiet. It sounds like it was a powerful moment.

Here is the Prayer of Peace so that you can have your own peaceful moment of oneness.


Happy Music



Yoonmirae(윤미래) _ Black Happiness

Shawn Mendes – There’s Nothing Holdin’ Me Back

(This song made me happy I was living in this day and age.)

Ani DiFranco – 32 Flavors

There’s more happy music out there. I don’t have time to find it right now, so I will post what I found easily and add more later :>)

I Get By with a Little Help from My Friends

The New Colossus
Sonnet on the Statue of Liberty by Emma Lazarus (1849 – 1887)
Originally published in 1883 to raise money for the statue pedestal’s construction.

Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,
With conquering limbs astride from land to land;
Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand
A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame
Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name
Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand
Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command
The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.
“Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!” cries she
With silent lips. “Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!”

I’m posting it here to preserve its sentiments for posterity. These are values I grew up with. I am a child of immigrants. Immigrants do not bring a country down, but add to its character. To me, this poem speaks of compassion, saying, “Don’t worry, we’re strong enough to take care of even you’re weakest.” By turning people away, we are sending the message that we are no longer capable—that we can’t handle it. But we all need to help each other. That’s how human beings survive.

I listened to a TEDx Talk that highlighted this very well. In it, the speaker talks about how she’s learned to get things done by sharing what she wants and what her challenges are. Someone, somewhere always has a way to help. She also goes around doing this for other people as well. This is her “practical” way to manifest reality.

Something so small changed the lives of many people. Many small things can add up to something great. This is my hope.

the music that runs the most often in my mind lately

[AXIS] Katie Kim – “Remember”

Jay Park (박재범) X Yultron (율트론) – ‘Forget About Tomorrow’

Jay Park – SOJU ft. 2 Chainz

Ok, so I’ve been listening to a lot of Jay Park over the last couple of days. And then, here’s some other good stuff in a similar genre that pops up.


HENRY 헨리 ‘Monster’

에릭남 (Eric Nam) – 솔직히 (Honestly…)

에릭남 (Eric Nam) – Potion (feat. Woodie Gochild)

Gallant x Tablo x Eric Nam – Cave Me In

[STATION] 엠버 (AMBER) X 루나 (LUNA) ‘Lower’

[STATION] AMBER 엠버 ‘Borders’

Yoonmirae(윤미래) _ No Gravity

Junoflo – VISIONS (Duppy Freestyle)

And just because it’s awesome:
Sawyer Fredericks – Hide Your Ghost

These are in no particular order. Looking at them, I think I need to listen to happier music ^__^

That will be another post.


Yesterday, I heard that Kate Spade committed suicide at 55 years old. She’s not the first story of suicide I’ve encountered, nor will it be the last.

When I feel really low and sad, something inside comes and comforts me. I’ve always felt taken care of, even as a young child. A presence, or Jesus, or the trees . . . my lowest points have brought the deepest realizations and reassurances.

So this suicide thing—being so sad and hopeless and lost that you think dying is better—seems so foreign to me. Of course I’ve been sad and depressed and angry, but that is a whole new level.

I wonder what I could do or say to help someone with that, because it just sounds so horrible. It’s giving up on life. I don’t think anything can be so horrible as that.

Not all the time, but there have been times when I’ve just been walking and have felt that life itself, Life with a capital “L”, is in itself worthwhile and special. You don’t need to do anything or be anything. The fact that you are alive makes you special and important. Simply living is a worthwhile goal. No one and nothing can take that away from you. Just eat, sleep, and poop. It’s ok.

Life will end on its own; it has its own timing. At the same time, our life force will carry on I believe. So just let it do its thing. We are all a part of Life, so be alive while you’re alive and accept it when it’s time to move on.

This acceptance is very different from ending this current iteration of life because you’ve given up or because you believe you’re worthless. The Catholic Church, which I grew up in, says that suicide is a sin, and I can see why. It’s really turning your back on God, on Life, and saying I don’t believe in you or trust you. You are saying that you, as a part of Life and God, are not worth it. That God is not worth it.

It’s similar to when we put ourselves down, although to a lesser degree. When we do that, we are saying that we believe in the thoughts and emotions we have more than our True Selves, in God, in Tao, in Presence, in whatever you want to call it. It’s saying that the momentary passing of negative thoughts and emotions, no matter how strong or ongoing, are what is real and important. But that is an illusion.

How horrible the long-term depression people suffer from must be that they can never see the light just beyond the veil of darkness. Even if you can’t feel it, it’s there . . . always there . . . no matter what. No one and nothing else is more important. Absolutely nothing.


I received pineal gland opening training from Ilchi Lee last night via a live broadcast from South Korea. All of the energies and possibilities and happenings are still swirling within me, even after a decent sleep. I hope that by freely writing here, I can untangle some of them so that I may be clearer and more effective in my life.

During a recent training/meditation, I could feel that I was “annointed” and that the drive to “prove” it came from the heated buzzing in my head, from my ego. My frustration lately stems from the fact that deep down I have these truthful-seeming realizations that seem to have nothing to do with reality. So then I think that I need to bring them out, make them manifest, by changing myself and taking action. That’s what all of the teachers I’ve read or heard about say. But that’s when things get murky, because I’m not sure what that looks like in reality or what I’m supposed to aim for. In the end, I keep changing my idea instead of heading toward one thing like a stubborn bull with unwavering devotion toward one goal. Then other people tell me what I should be focused on and instead of focusing on it, I rebel and think, no, I will only do what my soul wants and not get distracted. But then I don’t.

Such dilemmas. It’s quite comical. I can laugh at myself at how crazy it is. However, I have felt the deep peace of being and doing exactly what my soul wants in that moment. I think that is true peace and joy. So it’s also not so crazy.

In writing this, I realize once again that, like everything else, following the voice of your soul is a moment by moment choice that needs to be renewed. It requires Presence, rather than running full-steam at something as if the thing itself was the point instead of the process of being immersed in your body and aware of your soul. I need to keep my focus and awareness where it belongs, not on some far away idea of what I think I should be—that is ego territory.

I need to do this regardless of my daily tasks or the sales goals I need to achieve. Although those are present in my life as tools for the growth of my soul, I’ve started to wonder about how helpful they are, at least in the way I’ve been thinking about them and approaching them . . . or rather, the way I’ve been thinking that I should think about and approach them. Mostly, I avoid them as much as I can.

Maybe my relationship toward them needs to change. Again, they may only be useful if I am focusing inside myself, rather than only using the goal as my standard. Perhaps if I do that, I will stop avoiding them and will embrace them instead.

Doing that will give me right direction and right timing. Ilchi Lee has been emphasizing the importance of going in the right direction lately—of following your conscience and doing Hongik actions. I guess it’s the same thing 🙂

Whenever I feel out of step, I realize that I wasn’t so far away after all. In writing in this blog, I often feel assured that I’m okay and on the right track. What a useful blog it is! It’s my personal therapist that helps me to live out the fact that I already have everything I need.

I can trust myself.

Have a beautiful Wednesday!

Sound Healing from Nature

I’d like to explore the healing properties of sounds, so I’ve been collecting nature sounds whenever I find myself in a natural setting. The most distinct sound you can hear in nature is the sound of water, so most of the videos I’ve taken have been of water sounds in different places. I’ve recorded them from the ocean, streams, waterfalls, and lakes. I hope these videos give you a little peace in your day.

La Jolla, California


Saguaro Lake, Arizona


Horton Spring, Arizona


Pine Creek at Tonto Natural Bridge, Arizona

Opening Spiel

Today someone came to my Living Tao Book Club Meetup, and afterward, I realized that I needed an opening spiel—words I can say in the beginning to new people to explain what we’re about and what we’re trying to accomplish. So here goes . . .

This is a space and time in which we can explore the deeper things in life—the questions we don’t usually have the opportunity to discuss in our everyday lives. We use books as the catalyst and framework for our conversation. Beyond that, we help and encourage each other to live out the realizations we have.

I don’t pretend to know all the answers, and I encourage everyone to share their unfiltered thoughts and opinions in a respectful and kind way. I can only share my experiences and the awareness and consciousness I have so far. In the process, I think we can go beyond where it is possible to go on our own and can explore new avenues we may not yet have known were possible.

This group is a safe space where I have met amazing and wonderful people who give me hope for the world.